if anyone bothered to visit my blog often enough and realized i hafen been blogging for so long, it's not bcos i'm too bz, although i shud b. but... it's bcos my life is so uneventful now. i dowan it to b too eventful though, cos under the disguise of being in my room 'studying', i need the time for real study after wasting those time trying to get the engine started. still trying to find the unseen lecture notes and finish those undone tutorials. i cant believe i actualli didn't touch the tutorials of 2 modules!! how did i survive the past 6 months of tutorial lessons without getting caught...
*wOndEr*apart from the uneventful life, there's so much so much tings i wanna say. there's so much i want to tell the whole world. but i juz cant get those thoughts organised. simply duno wat and how to say. i know i shudn't keep tings to myself... cos there'll come a pt when everything juz explodes. but.. no pt telling anione when i know i'll get over it after the hols, after sch starts, after i see crowds of pple again. it's not just loneliness... it's something else..
perhaps it's tis moody feeling of mine tat's causing me to look sad. it's tis 'there's nothing to b happy abt' feeling that is not making me smile or laugh like i used to. tis is not the expression i want to face pple with. somehow, i hope to just lock myself up in my room and not see anyone until i feel normal again.
i'm missing home. finally i'm homesick. i want to b back in my room in tat little flat in aljunied. the place where i know no matter wat i do, i wun b judged, i wun haf to worry abt aniting, i'll still b loved, i'll b fine, i'll b happy. everything will b alrite. looking forward to after exams, to tat 13hr flight. nothing in london interests me animore.