....my memory lane....

Whee.. 1000 hits!

- Viv, 19August09

YES! I solved it! *beam*
It was an HTML error.

- Viv, 03August09

There's some problem with blogger.. or is it just my blog??
I cant seem to be able to post anything else without affecting the page layout. =(
Hopefully it's a blogger problem and they will solve it soon.

- Viv, 02August09

Hiyee.. Welcome!
It's a new look again... I hope you will like it. =)

- Viv, 12July09

hits since 12July2009.

..Rambling..

Monday, February 28, 2005

work

oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh!!!! having procrastinated since last wednesday after handing in my vibrations lab report, i decided to find out how much work is in store for me. and hohoho!! AAAH... i realized there are 5 deadlines due... EIC lab report, thermofluids lab report, materals lab report, log book and a freaking pump poster display... all in the last week of school, which is in just 3 weeks time, which is effectively onli 2 weekends!!! DAMN! why must they all squeeze into the same week???

this is sooo not good... and i hafen done any tutorials ever since progress tests. graaarr... my house is really not conducive for studying. no mood to concentrate at all. =(

so jon, if u r reading this, u better gimme a good treat when i go up. hahaha... imagine how much work and time i'm sacrificing for u. :p

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Saturday, February 26, 2005

a love letter?

What she doesn't know will kill you
by Matt Brochu
November 21, 2003

You met her a few months ago, and somehow she managed to seep into your subconscious like that 'Suga how you get so fly' song. Just like you have no clue who the hell sings it, you don't know why she's there. But she is, whether you like it or not. You know her cell phone, her room phone. You can dial her Aunt Doreen's house in West Springfield (where she goes to do her laundry every two weeks) faster than you can peck-out 911. But she doesn't know.

Her screenname, that generic one with her first name followed by three to five random numbers or UMass, has its own category at the top of your buddy list. Not only do you know what a 'Buddy Alert' is, you've rigged your computer to play 'Fat Guy in a Little Coat' from 'Tommy Boy' every time her screen name changes from gray to black. Then her away message comes down, and you have a decision to make. To IM or not to IM? These are the ridiculous games that you play on a daily basis. But she doesn't know.

She's it. All right, so maybe not 'it' it. Not necessarily Ms. Right, but closer to Ms. Right-up-there-with-Anna-Kournikova-and-Lizzie-McGuire-on-your-list-of-people- you'd-give-anything-to-be-stranded-with-on-a-broken-down-elevator. But it's about more than that. When is it ever about more than that? Never. Not like frilly white dress, overpriced catering, embarrassing drunk in-laws more, but closer to UMass sweatpants, two D.P. Dough Roni Zonies, a futon and a movie you have no interest in seeing more. But she doesn't know.

She's gorgeous, but gorgeous is an understatement. More like you're startled every time you see her because you notice something new in a "Where's Waldo" sort of way. More like you can't stop writing third grade run-on sentences because you can't remotely begin to describe something ... someone ... so inherently amazing. But you're a writer. You can describe anything. That's what you do: pictures to words, events to words, words to even better words. But nothing seems right. More like you're afraid that if you stare at her for too long, you'll prove your parents right: that yes, your face will stick that way. But you wouldn't mind.

You wouldn't mind that the questioning, "Hello?" on the other end makes you want to smile and throw up at the same time. You wouldn't mind worrying about what to get her for her birthday and spending $300 when you only have $17.50 and a Triple-A card to your name. You wouldn't mind that she left your TV on and the blaring infomercials wake you up at 4 a.m. ... because it gives you a chance to watch her sleep. You don't mind that you've slipped up twice when you were hammered and hinted at how you feel, but she was too drunk to remember. So she doesn't know.

Sure, she's pretty, but it's about more than that. You two connect. Anything you throw at her, she can throw right back. You figured out what's going on in that predictable head of hers in under five minutes, but something tells you her heart would take about five years.

You remember everything she's ever said to you, and when that freaks her out you blame it on your photographic memory (which is a lie, you have a 2.7 GPA). You can't remember your teaching assistant's name, and you can't remember that your Puffton rent check was due four days ago, yet you remember the middle name of the kid who tripped her in fifth grade and gave her that cute little scar on her shoulder. Maybe it's because you actually listen when she talks. When do you actually listen? Never. But she doesn't know.

But she has a boyfriend. The kid is a tool, and you are not. He has no redeeming qualities, and you have about 38, even when you're hung over. You could kick his butt, and you've never been in a fight in your life. He treats her like crap, and you would treat her like the princess she believed herself to be on Halloween in 1988.

But she loves him. He wouldn't know what he had even if she slapped him across the face and dumped him, but somehow she still loves him. And somehow she still doesn't know.

Then, out of nowhere, she slaps him across the face and dumps him. She comes to you. You've been there before, so you seem like the smartest guy on earth. She cries, but your corny half-joke, half-compliment somehow gets a smile out of her that almost makes you feel ashamed that you're the only one around who gets to witness it. It looks like you might make her realize that all guys don't deserve to have rocks thrown at them.

But nothing changes. She doesn't know. You get that library elevator feeling in your stomach that she'll never know. You get that feeling that you'll be forced to write a cheesy Collegian column about her that makes "Sleepless in Seattle" look like "Girls Gone Wild."

You go to sleep. You wake up. She doesn't know. You're not in love. You're not obsessed. You blame it on the fact that you just need to get some, but still, it's about more than that. It would just be nice if once in your life, things worked out the way you wanted them to.

So ___________, it's about time you know*.

Now cut this out, fill in her name, and give it to her, coward.
Just let me know how it works out.

Matt Brochu is a Collegian columnist.

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Friday, February 25, 2005

Lifespan

I am going to die at 76. When are you? Click here to find out!

AaARgh, joseph you are expected to live longer than me!!! -_-"

Well, I think i do need to start 'repair' my sleeping cycle to live longer... should try not to sleep so late for one! =P

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Wednesday, February 23, 2005

More and better photos thanx to jac~ (^.^)

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Everybody posing happily after running out on the first 'call' of snow~ yAaAy!

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The only people at emperor's gate crazy about snow. haha... we simply want to enjoy every single moment of it.

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The overused photo. haha... bet u've seen it at some other ppl's blogs too.. (*wink* u know who u r)... but, i want it on mine too! =P with a british accent: Lovely!

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Snow

WOoHoOOoo.... it's SNOWING~!~~!

heh... i know many people will b blogging about the snow. And I will too! Because snowing is simply just soooo beautiful.

Heard from some people that the very first snow in London this year was on last Saturday. But i missed it totally.. cos i was in my room with my curtain all closed to prevent as much heat from transfering out of my already freezing room as possible. Was so sad... and really hoped that it wouldn't be the only time snow can be seen in London. Have decided that I would try to pull up my curtain in the day time so as not to miss anything. haha...

The next time i know about the snow was yesterday. That's in the afternoon at ard 130pm. I was in Mech Eng building staring out of the window and I saw some gentle falling of... rain? But they are too opaque to be rain. Hence, I concluded that it's SNOW! yaaaay~ WHEeEEe.... i finally see snow!!! But too bad cant really go out and 'play' with it cos lecture starting soon and it was juz a few minutes of it.

Then later in the night, during Fidel's bdae party, it snowed again!!! wHeeEe.... it's not considered very heavy compared to last year when we actually got to play snow fight! But I guess it must have snowed for half an hour at least and there is substantial amt of snow to consider it as proper snowing! ;) heehee... I was simply mesmerised by the beautiful gentle fall of the flakes and was stuck to the wide-opened window for goodness knows how long. Luckily my heater was working then... it seemed to work powerful enough only yesterday. I was still hoping that it would snow long enough for the street to turn white... but sigh no, only the cars were covered with snow. The ground was still too warm for it. The photos below were taken during then.

And just now, about 4pm, when i was doing my EIC lab... it snowed once more!! HoOrAy~ I didn't get to see it properly though... juz a few glances, cos I had to focus on my lab otherwise I cant go home before 7pm! But from just that few glances, I think I see some proper snowing and how i wish i wish i don't have the stupid lab!!! gRrRr... i would be walking home in that snow if i don't have this lab!! sigh... i was hoping that it would continue to snow till i finish my lab but don't think there's that much frozen water up in the sky.

Looking at the snow falls quietly from nowhere to the ground is really a wonderful feeling. It is soooo beautiful. It makes me relax in my own little world. Really couldn't describe the feeling. Perhaps Chongwai got the feeling down in words best so far - It 'feels a little magical, a little sad, a little romantic... all mixed into a bittersweet emotion.'

The temperature will still be fluctuating around 0 deg celcius for the rest of the week. Hence I shall continue to wear my extra fat but warm jacket and pray for more proper snowing to make hyde park white!!!!!!! i wanna go play with snow~~~~~

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It snowed!! Finally... after waiting for so long... after thinking that it wouldn't snow this year... it's snowing!!! YAAAAAY~!! *happy*excited*grin*

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Didn't really manage to capture very good pictures of the snow... my camera is for amateur kind.. so, dun complain k!

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Yeah... this is the car parked directly outside my room's window. From the thin layer of snow on the car roof, you can see it didn't just snow for a few minutes~

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And finally, the snow stopped.

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Tuesday, February 22, 2005

happy anniversary

Three years ago, on this very day, a little girl forgot how it's like to be single. She forgot how she used to dream about her prince charming, she forgot how she'ld wish for this special guy when she watched romance movies/love stories, she forgot how to make decision without consulting/obtaining the opinion of him, she forgot how it's like to stay at home all day during weekends, she forgot how to plan her appointments without considering his schedule, she forgot how not to think of how to make him happy. She totally forgot how to live her life alone.

Three years later, she is given the chance to live the life she had lived for 17 years. She is not coping that well. She have forgotten alot of things. So.. she has to learn everything from scratch again. She is starting to recall and feel the way she would in the past, the kind of reaction she would have when faced with certain situations. Things seem to continue from 3 years ago. She need to be independent again, real independence.

Today marked the end of that 3 years. From now on, I will learn to be independent. I will live my life the way I want it to. I will plan my future myself. I will do what I feel like doing. I will make full use of the given freedom. No more sacrificing, no more thinking abt ways to make him happy, no more worrying abt his feelings, no more spending of my time and effort on him.

It is time i start to love myself and think for myself. I will be alright.

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Nerd

Hmm... shud i be happy, shud i be not.. who cares anyway? haha... As long as I have fun~ ;)

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Sunday, February 20, 2005

still a secondary school girl

somehow when u see a person everyday, u never realised that the person is actually growing up every single day.

for example, your younger siblings - does it ever occur to you that they are growing up at all? it's only when the years had passed and they were promoted to seconday sch, or jc, or reached another milestone of their lives then u'll suddenly realised that, oh ya! they are no longer the little adorable playful boy/girl they used to be. probably that's y it could be a little shock to parents when their 'little' children bring a bf/gf home... even at an age of 18? when people of older generation might have even considered marriage at that age already!

and for example, your parents - the fact that they are not growing taller and looked almost the same each day didn't help too much either. But they are growing older and older and b4 you know it, they've reached their 50s and u wonder if you have ever done your part in showing them some concern or showering them with your love. They are no longer the same as the time when they nagged at you to do your hmwk, brought you to the zoo, or acted as Santa Claus. They are getting old, no matter how they deny it.

And for me, the last person i ever notice that is growing up, is myself. Everyday I'll at least look at myself once in the mirror. Not much diff from yesterday huh. But... I am not the secondary school girl anymore. I am a 20 year old, can i still use the word, girl? I failed so terribly in realising that. Probably that's why i wasn't realli creating a big fuss when the first digit of my age changed, that's y my mentallity is still that of a secondary school girl, that's y i'm not able to cope with the complexity in my world now. I am still a little girl.

I kinda realised that a little when i was looking at some photos taken during the Spain trip. Usually I'll see myself as a little girl. But just now, duno why, I 'stepped back' a little and looked at myself like a stranger. Hmmm... NOW i see myself as old as the guys... i see that i'm really not the same as a secondary school girl.... i am in fact an 'unofficial' adult oredi! If i duno myself, I would have seen myself as one of those grown ups who always know what to do and able to make the right decision. Yeah... that was my impression of adults when i was young. hee...

If there were any primary school gathering, you will tend to notice the changes to every classmate. Sometimes, big ones. But when people started commenting how much you changed too, you would laugh it off and don't believe. Right? Well, at least that's the case for me. A friend told me, this is because I don't wish to grow up. I have no idea. I thought growing up should be a natural process and not deliberate. Even if I wish to grow up now, I shouldn't be deliberately acting the way i tHinK an adult sHoULd act. Maybe that's y there are some 30 or 40-year-olds out there who still act so kiddish-ly.

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LA Confidential

WhEeeE~ just finished watching LA confidential.... i guess it's a pretty old show. but for those who've never watched b4, it is those police detective show lor..... roughly abt this guy who tried to crack some case, and in the end managed to find the mastermind of many other big crimes and who was also the one who killed his father... yalah.. duno to classify it under action or thriller. But to me, it's a THRILLER!!! my gosh... u gotta ask Fidel how many times he heard me scream man. hahaa... this kind of show is enough to scare me and even now, my heart is still beating a beat faster than normal.... lol~

well.... didn't know what LA confidential was about when i watched it. Just feel like watching smtg but most of the shows in my laptop are kinda romantic ones.... which wasn't exactly what i'm keen in watching then. yeah.... so randomly choose this unknown and there i go.... 2 hours of suspense and excitement. haha.... cos i couldn't really hear them talk very clearly, so i listened using earphones and put on full blast. waaah.... i hate the moments when everything was quiet and a gun shot went BANG! daaaaamn i think i jumped a little..... grrrrrrr....

but on the whole.... heh.... felt much better now. =) i've always liked detective stories.... but always scared myself.... heeheee..... shudn't watch these kind of show alone next time. =P

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blahblahblah

Heh... banana flavoured milk!!! mmm... just bought 1 litre of it from Marks and Spencer yesterday. remember i used to buy it when i go shopping in NTUC. There would be the chocolate and strawberry and honeydew flavoured ones too!!!! yUmMiLiCiouS! But the one from M&S seems to be a little too thick...

Other than that, i bought smoked salmon toooo!! haha.... i declared smoked salmon to be my favourite food now~~ FanTaStiC... think i had alot this week alone.. dun care abt the price and just eat. hee... mayb smtg like retail therapy.. it's food therapy!

For those who have heard of, or who has the song 起程 (qi cheng) by 范玮琦， woooo.... i love the part near the end of the song where there is no singing and is just played by the piano!!! you wouldn't miss it if u listen to that song... it's so nice!!!! *mesmerised*

hmm....hockay, it's dinner time... but had loads of snacks in the afternoon.... now not even hungry. howhowhow? probably will watch some shows first... ^^

paiseh for a crappy entry arh! hee... juz feel like blabbering.... bleeeeaaah....

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Friday, February 18, 2005

分手第7天

曲 : 黄湘怡词 : 黄湘怡

很想知道你最近过得怎样
是否还像以往不多话
很想拨通电话问你好吗
却怕听你声音会更伤
分手第7天就像永远
对你的思念一天加多一点
分手第7天就像永远每当闭上双眼
你就在我眼前你就在眼前
很想握你的手重新来过
却知不可能的事太多
分手有时不是为了谁错只能默默接受着心痛

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This song is nice, but it never made any impact on me before. Unlike some other songs that would make me crazy about them and put them on a repeat for days and days till i'm tired of it.

Nonetheless, the lyrics of the songs and the catchy melody (or probably agressive publicity) actually made me remember the song and out it comes playing in my head automatically today after a long period of forgetting its existence.

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Eveningmare

I was traumatised, I was freaked out.... by an afternoon nap dream.

It started when I was reading an email from a friend. Felt kinda angry for the misconceptions and assumptions he had and the pressure I was given. I know it came with kind intention but I wasn't really in a mood to appreciate them then. I re-read the email many many times trying to find out what's wrong with me and my reaction. Anyhow, I finally decided that I was too tired and should take a nap.

After sometime, I 'woke up'. Opened my eyes and saw the very scene that I last saw when i fell asleep. Felt very drowsy though. So i closed my eyes again. I tried to turn my body to lie on my back, but to my horror, I couldn't! I know I was 'wide awake'. So I opened my eyes to see what is wrong. But no matter how i 'rolled' my eyes, I could only see one scene - the exact same scene that I saw when i first woke up. That made me panic, smtg is wrong. In the background I can hear Marvin said "Dinner's ready~". So I tried to shout for help. I really shouted very loudly... but no one is responding. Then the term "鬼压身" (gui ya shen) came to my mind. I have never experienced it before, could this be it??

Somehow, after a while, the pressure that I felt pressing against my body and my face started to 'peel' away. I can turn my body and move now, but still very lethargically because I could still sense some 'resistance'. My vision is still only seeing that one scene, so it's the same as I'm blinded. I wanted to call for help. But I can hear Jac in the kitchen having dinner with the rest. And since I couldn't make any sound, I thought of communicating by sms. By then, I was starting to be able to see smtg, but very blur. So I tried to search for Jac's name in my hp but I couldn't! I looked for 'Jac', 'Jacqueline', 'Lau'... all dun have! I gave up hope on sms and tried to move out of my bed. I managed to get out of bed and stand on the floor. I know i did because i can feel the carpet with my feet. Then i sat down, crossed my legs and calmed myself down trying to think of smtg.

It was then that I woke up. I opened my eyes, and saw the very scene that I was stuck to seeing in my dream. I tried to look around, thank goodness I could!!!! PHEW~ what a relief. I tried moving... and i did!! PHEW~ another relief. My neck was stiff and my head was quite heavy. I tried to think if I was still in the dream or if I am really awake. I am awake. Thank god man... I am alive(?)! Was still in a shock when Jac called me for dinner.

It had felt so real. The scenario is exactly the same. The 'scene' I saw when i first opened my eye, even the lightings were the same. Dinner is ready when i woke up. aAargh.. just so freaking same!! For a while i was really wondering if it's the 鬼压身 people talked about or if it's pure dream. I believe it's a dream because i didn't really end up on the floor when i 'woke up', but it's too real a dream~! People usually cant remember when they are in a dream, or even if they do, there'll be some 'dreamy' feelings? But not for this, I am very sure I am in a clear state of mind and is even able to control my thinking clearly. But... i choose to believe it's just a nightmare. evening-mare?

Probably I'm really too stressed. Too many things swimming in my head. And the pressure I was getting from people hoping to see me stand on my feet again is kinda suffocating. I really appreciate all your concerns... but please give me some time... Most of the things you peepz told me, I've thought of them b4. I can see clearly the situation I am in. I know for sure I will move on, but probably not in such a short period of time? I need some time for the hurt and the anger to 'wear off'. So please dun rush me.

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Thursday, February 17, 2005

Am I missing smtg?

have been reading friend's friend's blogs again... most of them are now studying in Singapore, mostly NUS. And reading abt their lives, their daily activties, their woes, their joys make me feel very... out of place. It seems like i'm missing out so much so much... seems like i no longer belong to the group of people i used to be in.

When i was young, studying in pri or sec school, watching how university life is like from TV dramas, I always felt that the uni students are all grown ups and have so much fun. They would give tuitions or do part-time jobs to earn pocket-money, have fun chilling out with their hallmates gossiping abt everybody, study earli into the morning with their coursemates during exam period, go out to play and have fun, take part actively in all sort of CCAs, and of course are either wooing or being wooed agressively, or trying to hide any one-way feelings, or falling in love with their good friends without realizing. And and and, there is also the big big campus where the rich young man would drive around to impress the girls. These are the very things we always watch from TV serials isn't it? And I would always think university is still quite far away in my life, and 20 years old seems to be pretty far away too... never really gave it much thought actually.

Even now, being a 20 year old, i realize i still haven't given it much thought. Maybe i did, but not in the way i used to think. Being in university doesn't seem to be the same as i used to think it would be. I don't feel as grown up, I don't feel as fun, I just don't feel the same as I imagined or used to think it would be like. How weird. But when i went to NUS to visit my friends last year, the same image fits perfectly again. The people did look quite grown up, the fun i imagined they had with their hallmates and coursemates seemed to exist, and all other tings fit into the picture very well too. So what is wrong? Am i really different from them now? Am i missing out something? Am i still in pace with them?

I really wonder, how my life would be if I had chosen to stay in Singapore. I'm very sure it'll be so so so different. At the very least I can go watch a movie as and when i like in the comfort of the big cinemas at Suntec or Orchard cineleisure or Plaza Singapura. I can imagine myself waking up earli in the morning and take the MRT all the way from the east to Buona Vista, and then taking the SBS bus to sch. I can imagine the workload and stress I'ld be facing, and complaining abt them with my good friends in my course. I would probably loiter ard in sch if i ever have any breaktime and tok cok with my gang of friends, just crapping and not making sense and laughing bimbotic-ly. I probably would be busy dating too... or crying my heart out. I probably would enjoy clubbing much more. I probably... probably... These are just guesses. Unreal.

I am not saying i regret coming to London. I never regretted because I can see what I've gained that many usually don't have the opportunity to. I'm just wondering... thinking about how much I've missed out. And how different I am now with some of my friends. Sometimes, I would even consider doing an exchange with NUS. haha.. tat realli sounds dumb, but for the sake of experiencing what i've always thought i would experience since young, it is an option isn't it?

Maybe i just miss home.

Other than that, here's a quote from heart_w|sh^'s blog, another blog which i stumbled upon.

"What about you? Are you the happiest and saddest right now that you've ever been? Of course I am. Why? Because nothing makes me happier and nothing makes me sadder than you."

How true it is...

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Wednesday, February 16, 2005

Do what You Want to Do

was just reading a random blog, that i stumbled upon while clicking on the link of a link of a link of a link of a link of my friend's blog... yeah u get the idea. tat's how aimless i was. anyway, this particular blog belongs to a girl whom i think lives in a part of the world which i've never ever come across and even doubt its existence. Academic background, social circles, perspectives of life, love relationship.... everything. It's so different that i was actually traumatised while reading her blog. I'm not exaggerating here.... i was really quite traumatised. i can feel the strain in my heart as i read her blog. I just couldn't believe it's a real blog, and of someone my age too. I thought I'm reading a novel... or watching a movie. The things that happened are just so unbelievable. I'm not going to elaborate or talk about her life because i feel that that is her privacy. But... the shock i got from reading her blog... it just leaves my eyes and mouth wide open.

But well, other than the unbelievable stuff and all, there is one thing she wrote that strikes me. '人要笑过，哭过，疯过，错过才算活过。' (ren yao xiao guo, ku guo, feng guo, cuo guo cai suan huo guo) Maybe while one is still young, one really should go all the way and try out whatever one is interested in trying, no matter how crazy or how wrong people deemed it to be. Well, excluding anything illegal or harmful to others, of course. Maybe one shouldn't hide the wildness in one and should just go crazy once in a while, ignoring if it's wrong in the "society's view", ignoring whatever consequences it'll have...

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a very beautiful and handsome picture here, especially for sasuke's fan!! :)

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Tuesday, February 15, 2005

pinky? Not me!

Just to clarify... i do like the pink on my blog, but it only just so happened to be pink!!! if it's blue, i would like it as much too!! heh... so.... dun worry abt me being a pink fanatic, or turning my room pink, or becoming pinkish.... cos as i said b4, i'm not a fan of pink. :p so this is really where the pink stops. heh... (Charlotte help!!!!)

my screwed up sleeping cycle and laziness make me missed several lectures and tutorials... really dowan it this way, but even the alarm clock is against me today. didn't bother to ring. i guess i do haf alot of work to catch up... especially since recent work are all so new and complicated, dun really have any idea what they are talking abt. and i hafen been paying attention even if i'm physically at the lecture theatre. -_-"

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Monday, February 14, 2005

Happy V-Day!

"I DO, AGAIN Been there, done that but... Still crazy in love."

An article from The New Paper which obviously is written for Valentine's Day. It's a really sweet article... and gives everyone hope.

Happy Valentine's Day everyone. Or... Happy Friendship Day? That was how it was celebrated when we were in JC wasn't it? ;)

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Lovely blog

i really like my new blog alot. heh... much better than the straws or the cyan-ish amateur-looking fridge ya?? and... i like the ease of customising blogspot's template~ heh... not advertising for blogger k.... ;P

i like the layout.. although i'm not a fan of pink, this pink doesn't realli turn me off. it gives a sweet, elegant, soft, soothing effect. i love the rose especially, with 'sparkles twinkling' around it... gives a magical feeling ya?? the faint background picture seems to imply that what you see is not all, there could be a story behind the simple appearance. And finally the word "Rosy Dreams..." ok, this is not exactly what i wanted, it comes with the blogskin. But i like its font... and i guess it is time i start having rosy dreams too...

heh... i just feel like adding more entries. otherwise it seems pretty empty...

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Sunday, February 13, 2005

Everything will be alright

Well... nothing much to say actually. But for those who read the previous entry which has now been taken off, it was written only in a fit of anger. So... not really a credible entry that make any sense. Please forget what was written. Nor discuss about it, if you know what i mean. Thanx.

And... I am feeling slightly better? Pardon me if I couldn't smile or if i suddenly burst in tears (which i think i wouldn't now... hopefully). I know I'll be ok... just a matter of time. Yeah... so don't worry.

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It was supposed to have ended peacefully. With no one bearing any hard feeling for the other. With a new beginning, things should have all come to an end. We probably would still be good frens.

But... why did you make things worse? Why do you have to tell me those... I said before, either tell me the truth, or lie to me for the rest of my life. Why make me lost all hopes... why make me feel so foolish... why hurt me so deeply...

i dowan to end up hating you. i really dowan.

signing off @ 2:00 am with 0 Comments

Saturday, February 12, 2005

A fresh start

With the previous counter of the blog at tripod.com hitting 200, I have decided to throw away the past and start a new blog. Hopefully a blog that looks more presentable. So there you go... all comments and gossips welcome! started using a flooble chatterbox oso... hopefully it wun suspend as often as the one joseph has... =p

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